Also since the last time I wrote I lost my grandmother after a year long battle with gallbladder cancer that had spread to other organs. She was 73.. The year 2013 was a very emotional year but I learned so much from her and from the whole experience and came out stronger in 2014.
Speaking of 2014, it has been a big year so far in my social and professional life. No love life to speak of though, lol. I blame the area and/or maybe as I have grown older my tolerance for "BS" has grown. I have found a lot of guys/people here to be very pretentious. I'm not a fan of the "What do you do, What do you drive?" crowd DC seems to attract. Or maybe as a native, I'm not impressed with the quality, although I have met some very interesting people. It seems as superficial as some say Atlanta is ( my other favorite city next to New York) that the "southern charm" works on me. Lol. Who knows?
My current thoughts are from an essay I just read titled Sister Outsider by Audre Lorde, a black lesbian feminist. I have begun a journey to understand feminist and lesbians and their perspective other than the obvious.I was first struck by how Audre Lorde defines erotic as a power, then clears up stereotypical or false beliefs that the erotic is a bad thing. She disconnects erotic with pornography. As a male, I always seek “passionate pornography,” however; such a term cannot exist according to Lorde as it is not erotic. Pornography represents the suppression of true feeling. Erotic involves, “The sensual-those physical, emotional and psychic expressions of what is deepest and strongest and richest within us." What also caught my attention was that Lorde writes that in refusing to be aware of what we are feeling, however comfortable, it seems is to deny the experience but I would add that refusing to be aware of what we are feeling, however uncomfortable to also denying the experience. Many times I believe there is a “bond” a connection, conceivably erotic based on her definition of erotic, yet we are not comfortable in that moment, therefore denying the erotic. I believe that to be true of many who lesbian, gay, bisexual or transgendered.
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